Continuing the Journey

Since my first post I have had many thoughts run through my mind
that I have realized would be great to write about but then when
I sit to write so much of my past fears coming rushing in.

Through out my life I have had to deal with numerous fears as my
life was so greatly influenced by what I thought others were thinking. 
When I look back at my journey in life on this road that so often
seems as one that is a road that is not traveled by many, 
I have gotten overwhelmed with life itself. Through it all I have
learned many things and then been reminded of it again later, I
so quickly forget what God  has done for me but one of the greatest
things is that God does not  forget and He loves to remind me
of his blessings.

I mentioned in my first post that my relationship with God is the
most dynamic relationship I have ever had.  I continue to to be
reminded of the fact that anything apart of God only leads to
death and not life.  I embarked  on a journey approach. 27 years
back to what I believed was moving  towards wholeness but I did
not know then as much as I understand now. My love for my life
giver was immense but yet as I look back at my life's journey
there was so much that I did not fully understand about the
journey.

In the beginning I believed that if I lived the way I  believed
I was to live as a follower and friend of my life giver that
all would work out in the end.   This I see is happening but
the time frame or length of the journey to reach where I am
today has taken a lot longer than anticipated.  Even though the
road I have traveled has not been the easiest I would not want
to trade it for anything.

I have started to read another book by Donald Miller titled
 "To Own a Dragon" -  (reflections on growing up with out a father). 
I previously read Blue Like Jazz, Searching for God Knows What and
Through Painted Desert all  by Donald Miller.  I my opinion  they
are all must reads.  I am not one that has done a lot of reading
and even my  children have been surprised by the amount of reading
I have done in  the last year.  There is something about Donald Millers
style of writing that I connect with. He is so candid with his thoughts
which is  something that I have experienced in my own life that the
more open and honest I have been on this journey called life the more
alive I have felt.  I embrace learning how to face my fears and
uncover how to TRUST those around me.  Just last week a group called
SALT started, which I am a part of.

S - Sex
A - Addicts
L - Learning
T - Trust

The first evening all the group members took time to share part of
their journey that brought them to the group.  Tonight we covered
the first lesson   that reminded me of just how much this journey
is all about God.  I was challenged  to look at how I have turned
so many times from finding my life in Him  and sought my own ways
of finding life which have only lead to more loneliness, hurt and
disappointments.  I will have more to say about this in my next post.